MISTAKES THAT I MADE IN COLLEGE (PART 2)

    This time, another mistake that I made in college is I didn't prioritize myself. It was not actually happening for the first time, but it had already happened many times. This mistake also happened during my high school era, and actually, I have always reminded myself to always prioritize myself first before I put other people. Yet, I still repeated the same mistake again until I felt regret. Even though the feeling of regret hasn't faded in me, I still gave the space to people to let them waste my time, although I have other work to do.

    Back then, I thought that if I prioritized other people first in my life, it could give me some benefits, but ended up, I was wrong. I didn't get any benefits in return, and it only drained my energy physically and mentally. As a student in college, I felt it was more exhausting than during my high school era because after I stepped into a college I have learned that I can't let other people control our precious time as I mentioned just now, my physical and mental are going to drain more, and at the end of the day I felt regret and sighed thinking about how I just let day off like that without doing something that I could fill my precious time with good activities.

    Another reason why I kept repeating the same mistake before is that I was very afraid that if they were going to hate me, and it's hard for me to say "no" every time they asked me to accompany them or spend my time with them to hang out outside  the college while I still have unfinished work to do.

     There was one time I was going out with my friend to accompany her somewhere, with my assignment still unsubmitted. We went out until it was almost night, and after we had returned, I remembered that I still needed to submit the assignment as the due date was that day. Imagine that I, with no energy that day, had to do the assignment right away. The assignment involved a lot of work, including exploring and editing to make sure the final output was neat and easy to understand.

    From that day on, I started to put myself first before deciding to do something else or going out with other people. Other than that, I keep asking myself if this really gives me a benefit or not, if it is not, then I will continue spending my time properly arranged with something good.